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Sunday, September 13, 2009

Day 152 521 days to go 13rd Semptember 2009

Today is book in day, the hated day, right now time is 1955, leaving at around 2030

already wearing the greens, and prepared almost everything, hope that i do not miss out on anything

well, cant believe that i actually survived for 3 weeks now, starting on the 4th week, also the last week of lecture

it is such a morale downer that all our major events are scheduled at the end of course, especially exercise steelwall, the most dreaded is at the last week, well, at least the course is short...

looking forward to 19th October, more or less end of OJT, 36 days to go...

actually the course is fine, its the atmosphere thats generated that causes the dread, the strict regiment and the ridiculous scoldings

dreading another 5 days of scoldings and punishment, still hoping that things would change, at least for this last week of non-outfield

i wonders how strict regiment can combo with outfield...

o ya, its even worse that they always gives us false hopes like nights out, or shortened outfield from 3 days to 1 day, benefits that are impossible to achieve with their absurd standards...

i still harbour hopes to achieve them though...but that requires teamwork of exceedingly high standards...

i am a fool for harbouring hopes that will eventually fail...

hopes are hopes... i still like them though...

[[.flamefrost.]]|4:52 AM|

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